There's been alot going on lately and in these situations I usually go on retreat within. Folding in on myself, seeking sanctuary ,a typical introvert . In withdrawing from the outside and going within ,I find that I'm also very much influenced by the moon. A full moon has me energised, enthusiastic, buzzing.The dark moon has me heavy, lethargic, depressive. It's taken me a long time to notice these waves and sometimes I forget how much my feeling is related to the lunar cycles. In times past maybe I could have been seen as a lunatic, a term which resulted in exclusion, incarceration and immense stigma and suffering.
I suppose it's easy to pathologise things which are outside the"norm", things which are less understood,things which could be seen as frightening or extraordinary. We may have changed some of our ideas about lunar cycles,but it can still be difficult ground to cover in a sensitive,serious consideration.
My own relationship with the moon became very clear to me this morning after my period of introversion and darkness.
I have been down lately, I think the war in Ukraine and what has been happening to the people,the country,the destruction and brutality of this war, of all wars, has got me down. The perennial suffering in Palestine. The shootings in America. People cold and hungry over here and the fear of how things could be in the future if humanity does not seriously grow up and mature into a less separate,selfish,greedy,spoilt ungrateful way of being.
My lunacy came to me before dawn on this new day when a new moon was becoming. I was meditating firstly on how the energy had returned. In my heart I felt light in weight and in brightness. Drifting into the place between dream I saw that the light in my heart is not my light and it does not come from me ; it is a reflection of the great light. The light of Christ,of Krishna,the light of enlightenment itself. The light in my heart is the reflection of all of these, and is a reflection of the lights of all the hearts in all of creation.
This has taken alot of responsibility away from me, from my need to be doing something, to be practising anything,improving anything.My purpose is simply to reflect the great light of the universe.
In becoming this reflection,I can still be who I am and do what I do, but at the same time it is not me alone who does it. I am not separate from the whole and I am not striving to be part of something bigger, I'm just a reflection. I have put the moon in my heart, and there is a method in this, the sun of the solar plexus is beneath and the earth is beneath that in our base. Within my body I contain the earth, the sun ,and the moon and somehow they are in relation to each other. The discovery of how that relationship works has yet to be made but I am looking forward to finding out.
If William Blake can see heaven in a wild flower, and eternity in an hour , I am happy to share my vision with you .